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Walking up to the large photo frame of your wedding day, you caress it with your fingers lightly.
You both are smiling, he is smiling in the way no one can doubt if he is really your arranged groom or a lover.
He really knows how to cover up his emotions well.
On the other hand, you being you, you were genuinely happy.
No, you did not fall for him at first sight. You are not a fool for that, you knew men very well.
Though you have not experienced anything with them particularly but you have seen so many examples and that made you experienced in a way.
You both were arranged no doubt, you were hesitant at first but your parents assured you about him for everything.
You trusted them so you agreed. They're parents after all. They know well or so you thought. Both of your parents gave you time to get to know each other.
You both have spent time before the wedding and he was like this since day one with you.
His parents told you that his nature is cold but he opens up once he gets comfortable with anyone. And you trusted them on that as well.
They treat you like their own daughter. You love them like your own parents. But after marriage you started developing feelings for him.
Yeah, he is still cold, but you liked him in every possible way.
He is hardworking no doubt, he is determined and focused on his goals and vision. No one can distract him from that.
He is breathtakingly handsome, no wonder every girl used to drool over him back in his college days. And that man was kind of like a nerd, nerd without glasses or braces but so into his studies that he never really cared about dating and stuff.
You understand him, it was so sudden for both of you so it was hard to accept at first for this marriage and giving it effort.
You were the same for the first few days, very shy and scared around him. But it's been a year already and watching him not make a single progress makes your heart break.
As you said, he can give you anything in this world but what if what you want is only his precious time? And just a little bit of his affection. Is it too much?
You sighed as your eyes wandered around the frame. A sad chuckle left your lips reminiscing about when today you woke up, you found no one beside you, and soon you realised that he left even before you woke up, obviously for his work.
But you don't know, somewhere you felt like maybe he is going to surprise you? So pathetic right?
Yeah guess, you're a fool for him now. You think he remembers but acts like not, because no way someone can forget their wedding anniversary right?
Maybe, just maybe, things would go right tonight? Or not...
You turned around and walked up to a room, your safe place, an escape for you. As soon as you enter it, a soft fragrance of acrylic colours hits your nostrils. You smiled as you walked up to your sitting table and sat on it with a canvas facing you.
Picking up your brush, you started completing your unfinished painting.
Yes, you love painting, it is your hobby more like a secret talent of yours.
Whenever you feel sad, depressed, or unstable, you come here and paint. It's an escape for you.
When you paint you forget everything around you, all your problems, all your hardships, everything. It's just you and your canvas.
You were making a night scenery this time, a beautiful night scenery, a dark blue sky where many sky lanterns were flying. You personally love this kind of view so you thought of painting it.
You love sky lanterns and you wish to fly them someday by yourself. It is a symbol of good luck and hope.
All of a sudden your phone rang so you looked at it then kept the brush down before wiping your hands with a tissue after seeing the called ID.
"Good morning mom" you greeted your mother in law sweetly. "Morning sweetie, happy anniversary to you and Jungkook" she wished you in excitement.
You teared up a little. She was the first one to wish you. You wished it was your husband. "Thank you mom." You chuckled.
"So what's your plan for today? Are you both going out or Jungkook planned something? I bet he did!" She said proudly. You feel bad right now.
Neither his nor your parents knows the reality between you two and wish to keep it as it is.
You don't want them to be worried or tense about you two at this age. "Uh.. yeah yeah.. we will maybe? I don't know yet" you laughed nervously. She chuckled on the other side.
"Yeah I wish you the best for your marriage. I hope you both stay happy always" she smiled at the other side. You looked down, biting your lips. "Thank you mom" you whispered.
"I called that brat as well but he did not pick it up? Is he not at home?" She asked. "Ahh no he got some urgent work so he left." You lied.
"Oh he could've taken a day off at least for today." She sighed. "It's okay mom, he is so busy these days with his upcoming project. It's important." You assured her.
And the talk went on for a few minutes and soon you hung up.
You sighed as you kept your phone back on the table. You looked at it for a few seconds. You wish to get a call at least from him.
He is definitely planning something. "It's okay y/n be patient!" You nodded to yourself before picking your brush up and continued your painting.
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Unlocking his phone, he looked at his wallpaper.
It was a picture of you.
Don't ask why does he have your picture as his wallpaper. He's himself not aware of the reason.
He sighed looking at your picture.
He feels different towards you nowadays.
Although he was the one who cleared everything after your wedding, he is not at all interested in marriage and stuff. He did this for his parents and he knows the case was the same from you as well.
He told you he was not yet comfortable around you and you gave him all the time. He is not a fool. He knows. He can see the efforts you're putting in this marriage.
But.. somewhere inside him is stopping him. What is it? He doesn't know? Is he nervous? He doesn't know? But he really wants to try for you but everytime he thinks of it, he stops himself.
'Jeon Jungkook, get your sh*t together man! What are you even doing?' rubbing his temple with 2 fingers he lets out an audible exhale.
He has never done this before and that's why he is so confused. He dodges you everytime you try to come near him. He gets nervous all of a sudden around you.
At first he was uncomfortable but now he gets nervous. He tries to avoid you all the time. And for it on top of that he's been working on a project, a very important one and that's why even if he tries to, he can't because he is so busy.
He doesn't know how to manage his time for his wife. He has never done this before. But that doesn't give him any rights to behave with you as he does.
But he just can't help it..
He ends up disappointing you without his knowledge.
He really wanted to have breakfast with you today but he couldn't because he had an urgent briefing early in the morning. He caresses his phone screen before he hears a knock on his door.
He locked his phone and kept it away before permitting the person to come in.
"Good afternoon Mr. Jeon. I have prepared all these papers already. You just need to sign on to them." A lady in her early 20s came in.
She is one of the employees of the marketing department in his company. He nodded at her before grabbing the papers from her grip.
She purposely brushes her fingers on his. He felt uncomfortable as he immediately pulled his hand back with the papers.
She smirked internally as she pressed her thick lips coated with blood red shade of matte lip colour.
"Thank you ms. Yeo, you may leave now" he handed the paper back to her. "Mr. Jeon, you look tired these days?" She asked, blinking her eyes at him in a weird manner.
He sighed as he rubbed his temples, "I'm fine, please leave now." He told her calmly but that lady wasn't ready to leave, yet.
"Wait Mr. Jeon, I should give you a massage-" she came up to him and was about to touch him until "MS YEO" stood up from his seat and yelled all of a sudden making her flinch.
"How many times did I tell you to leave?? Don't you understand that leave means LEAVE!!" He roared at her. She gulped before bowing and dashed out of his office.
But before she could leave, "and if you do this one more time, I'll not even hesitate to fire you" she apologised and then left.
He let out an audible long sigh before plopping down on his chair again. He looked outside his office room's french window. It was pouring heavily.
He sighed again as he looked at his laptop screen before continuing his work.
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Looking outside the window of your bedroom, you realised how lonely you were right now. At this point you don't even care about your anniversary. All you want is him.
Close to you.
But was it even possible?
Not just because it's your anniversary but because you really badly want him by your side, as his wife, as his friend at least? Still somewhere inside that heart of yours, you think, he will come and celebrate the anniversary with you.
It's okay even if he doesn't remember, you will understand him regardless. You will take the initiative and celebrate it with him. You will make him realise that you're there. But, somewhere you're somehow losing your hope as well.
You are not sure about your future with him. Heck you're not even sure if there will be any future of you and him together.
Your eyes went up to the wall clock as it shows it's past 7pm right now. He must be here anytime now. I'll definitely talk it out with him tonight.
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You bite your lips anxiously in nervousness as you keep hearing the ticking of the clock as it now shows that it's past 10pm.
You were walking back and forth in the living room, waiting for him but he is not home yet. Where is he? You let out a frustrated sigh as you looked out of the window and saw it was still pouring heavily.
"Is he okay?" This question. You asked this question thousands of times already to yourself. But you don't know the answer.
You kept calling on his phone but he ain't picking it up. It's always leaving you on voicemail.
You decided to try to call his secretary and ask him. Picking up your phone you searched for his number and finally found it. With your slightly shaky hands you called him and it ringed before he soon picked up and greeted you.
"Hello Sanghoon, can you tell me about Jungkook? He hasn't come home yet.
Are you with him?"
You bombarded him with your questions while resting walking back and forth. But his next words made you stop on your tracks.
"But Mrs. Jeon, Mr Jeon left the company at 8pm only."
To be continued...
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